Friday, January 8, 2016

Do You Know Who You Are...

A few years ago, I was having a conversation with a friend of mine.

It was late at night and we were joking around about the crazy ups and downs of life, dreaming of how WONDERFUL it would be to ditch the roller coaster and take a few spins around the lazy river...



when all of the sudden my friend got VERY serious.

She looked me in the eye and asked,

Do you know who you are?”  

Well, her question COMPLETELY caught me off guard and I think I responded with something really intelligent, like, 

....Huh?”.  

So she asked me again. A little S L O W E R this time (gotta help a sister out, right?); 

Do you K N O W who you are?...Who you were before you came to earth?...Who you were sent here to become?

W.O.W…talk about your heavy questions! 

I think I just SAT there, STARING at her with this BEFUDDLED look on my face, while SHE, no doubt, began to question the level of my intelligence ("Helloooo? Anybody home?"). 

But seriously, I didn’t know how to answer her….I mean, sure, I knew who I was in a "GENERAL" sorta way...

I've known, ever since I was a tutu-twirling, pig-tail wearing Sunbeam, that I was a Child of God. (Romans 8:16) (Hebrews 12:9)(D&C 76:24)

I knew, all through my gangly, awkward teenage years, that I was a daughter of my Heavenly Father who loved me. (Romans 8:35,38-39) (Jeremiah 31:3)(John 13:34)

I knew I lived with Him before I came to this earth and was sent here to receive a body, to learn, to grow, to be tested, to become more like Him...



just like everyone else. (D&C 138:56)(Abraham 3:22-26)(Alma 34:32)(2 Nephi 31:12)

But she wasn’t asking me if I knew who I was in a "GENERAL" sorta way. She was asking me if I knew who I was in a "SPECIFIC" sorta of way. 

And no one had ever asked me that before. 

Well, finally I had to say SOMETHING...

so I decided to save face and play it cool, 

Yeah, I know who I am.” (But on the inside, I was REALLY like, “Eek!”)

Well, when I went to bed that night, I couldn’t sleep.

Her question was HAUNTING me. 


I felt just like Ebenezer Scrooge, being tormented by ghosts from past, present, and future…”DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE?? DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE??”

And the sad truth was...

I didn't. 

I was 33 years old (descending into the depths of middle age-dom) and I didn’t know who I was. 

I had never asked.

What I DID know, was if ANYONE could help me understand who I was, it was my Heavenly Father. 

He was the ONE person who knew me EVEN BETTER than I knew myself. 

So that very night, I rolled outta bed, got down on my knees, and asked Heavenly Father one of the most important questions I have EVER asked...

“Who Am I?" 

I PLEADED with him to help me understand more about who I was before I came to this earth and who I was sent here to become...

in a "specific" sorta way.

And do you know what’s SO awesome?! 

He ACTUALLY answered me!

The answer didn’t come all at once, but little by little, piece by piece, He answered me. And I began to learn things about myself that I NEVER knew before. 


President. Uchtdorf says,


”Our Heavenly Father sees our REAL potential.  He knows things about us that we do not know ourselves. He prompts us during our lifetime to fulfill the measure of our creation....Let us resolve to follow the Savior and work with diligence to become the person we were designed to become.” 

That ONE question changed my life because I started to see myself, not through the WORLD’S eyes, but through HIS eyes.

Oh, the world will be HAPPY to tell you "who you are" and "what you're worth". 

The world is NOT shy to tell you who you "should" be (or place limits on who you "could" be). 

There’s just ONE little problem with the WORLD'S opinion…the world is CLUELESS about who you were, who you are, and who you were sent here to become.

If you TRULY want to understand who you are, you'll need to turn to the one who knows you better than ANYONE else…

and THAT is your Father in Heaven.



“I testify to you that God has known you individually . . . for a long, long time (see D&C 93:23). He has loved you for a long, long time. He not only knows the names of all the stars (see Psalm 147:4; Isaiah 40:26); He knows your names and all your heartaches and your joys!”

Yes. Heavenly Father knows EXACTLY who you are.

Do you?

Barbara

1 comment:

  1. Kid in the roller coaster, awesome. Haunted like Ebenezer Scrouge, hilarious. Asking and finding out who you are, priceless. You are an incredible person. If only more people would listen to your sage advice. I'm already excited to read your next post.

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